You're Beautiful

Gosh, that damned song is turning around in my head and has been for the last couple of days. Can someone come up with a sadder song please? We really don't have enough despair, desperation and fultility in this world.

What is it about meeting someone who you know is just so right for you but impossible to be with? How come there are so many of these stories in this world? Does everyone go through a point in their life when they actually have to say "in a different life, in a different world, things would be different." It's just so sad.

That song makes me want to cry everytime I hear it.

I have been in a funny mood these days. I know there is something wrong but I have so many things to do that I have managed to push my disturbing thoughts under the carpet "to deal with later". I am kinda torn between what I have and what I want. And being a horrible person.

I saw your face. In a crowded place. But I don't know what to do. Coz I will never be with you.

Met my mum for lunch in town. Dropped a substantial amount of money on clothes.

Still don't feel better.

But it's time to face the truth. I will never be with you.